Good news!

It is nice to have good news to post.
David was asked to work until Dec. 2. which means that much more paycheck, and another month of insurance. oh happy day.

A New Adventure

So I am now embarking on a new adventure in my life. I have decided to become a creative memories consultant and sell scrapbooking supplies. I am very excited because I love the products and I love to scrapbook. I am a little nervous because I have never done any sell from home experiences before. So here I go.

Do you ever have those days where you wish you could have just stayed in bed because within hours of getting up you just want to disappear. Well that is me today. It has been a long one and I have only been awake for 2 hours. I still have to babysit a friends little boy. I just know it is going to be a pain because of the way my kids have been already. not to mention Tarren is getting sick. Why are these things so hard to take some times. I am hosting a scrapbooking party tomorrow night and still have half of my invites to delover and I don't have the van today because I can't take David back to work because I will be babysitting wow I need to start figuring out some solutions to these problems. and Quick. Wish me luck.

So, things are starting to look up. David may have a job prospect working from home. Hopefully it will allow him to be able to go back to school and get his degree. He has decided he wants to major in Criminal Justice. kinda scary to me but he doesn't want to be a cop so hopefully he will work in a more mellow aspect of the justice sector. On the other hand, depending on how things play out with this job, I may be going to work after the baby is born so he can get through school and and get a job.

The whammies just keep on coming!

So I thought my last blog surrounded a tough week. Boy was I wrong. So don't you just love how when you think things are tough, you are proven wrong and get to experience what tough is really like.
Well, to get to the point. Yesterday, during David's day off, he got a phone call from work. We found out that they are closing down the Dell call center here in Twin. Joy of Joyness. I am totally stressing out cause no job means no insurance, no insurance means really expensive baby. and all the other things I am not prepared to think about.
Wow what a day.

one tough week

So here it is a week later and yesterday we had to take Tarren to the doctor for an ear infection. earlier this week one of his stitches came untied and came out. We got the rest out today and the first thing he did was pull off the scab. grrrr well at least it didn't bleed any more so that means it might actually get better someday if we can keep him from picking it to death. so my poor little boy is having a very difficult week.

Emergency Room visits

So today started out as the typical Sunday morning, got up got ready for church went to church...get to church and tell david I didn't want to sit in back on the hard chairs I wanted to sit in the nice comfy can trap our kids in it pews. so ...we sing the opening Hymn and then Tarren goes to put his Hymn book away and misses, falls off the bench and cracks his forehead against the corner of the book holder. David grabs him before he even hits the floor and rushes him out. The kind sister in front of us turns around and says " He's bleeding I can stay with gabby so you can go out."
So out I go and find my son bleeding from his head and a kind doctor in the ward telling David he will need stitches and that we should take him to the ER. so after an hour of waiting in the ER they finally make it in to give him the 3 stitches and we got to go home. what a long and emotional hour.
on another note... at least when we got there I was able to feel better about my sons condition because a 10 year old boy was being brought in with a compound fracture in his arm and he was screaming and saying "I can see the bone sticking out". That poor boy I hope he is feeling better soon.

The pregnancy test problems

So yesterday, the good mom to be that I am , I was looking on Babycenter.com and reading some of the different things on there that I saw. One was a post by a lady who had taken the same test I did and had a faint line like I did and everyone was telling her that that kind of test gives a false positive all the time. it is called and evap line. So I thought great...now what should I do. just watch I am not pregnant and now I have to call all those people that I told and tell them it was a false positive. so I get up the courage and go to the store and buy "real" pregnancy test. the kind I normally get and would have saved a ton of money if I would have just gotten them to begin with. I come home and take the test and guess what.....I am still pregnant. Yes folks it is official. now I just have to call and make the long awaited, possibly dreaded doctors appointment.

The awaited announcement...

Yes, I am pregnant. So as most of you know we have been planning to get pregnant. Well the other day I took a pregnancy test and the line was really faint but it was there. so then I took another one the next morning and it was the same thing but after I took it, I said to myself...so if we were trying to get pregnant why aren't we excited about this...So now I am starting to get excited and ready to start telling people. so Yippee we are having another baby.

BBQ

So for the first time since we moved in our house I have had the opportunity to have friends over to have a bbq and enjoy being under our screened in gazebo It was so great. And to go along with it I learned that inviting over my friend and her Health Inspector husband can insight a panic in my husband. It was so wonderful to have a good evening with friends. It makes me miss my Emily and her Kevin and all the great evenings we spent playing games and cooking dinner together.

Swimming Lessons

So a week ago monday, Gabby started swimming lessons. She is really loving it. well yesterday she got to go jump off the diving board and she just loved it. so anyway I will try and get some pictures taken today and put them up so everyone can see my beautiful 3 year old jumping off the diving board.

Family History, I am doing it. My family history.

So The other day I was thinking how so many times my dad sister an d I have talked about taking my mom's parent's names to the temple...and here it is 8 and a half years since Grandma died and I decided why should I wait for one of them to do it so I am preparing the names to go to the temple. I am so excited.

So I am still walking and I have lost 5 lbs. so far. I am so excited. I had a really great day with the kids yesterday. We went to my favorite park where all the slides are slow enough the kids won't fall off. and I watched Gabby and Tarren play. They are getting so big and it kinda made me a little sad at how fast they are growing but excited at the same time. We also got gabby signed up for swimming lessons and she is so excited to start those in a couple weeks. I will try and get some pictures up once she gets started.

When plans change

Okay...for those of you who read my last post, wow can plans change. So we have decided, with a lot of promptings from the spirit, that NOW is the time and not to procrastinate the time to get pregnant. So here I am, with all my doubts and fears still in tact, heavier than I have ever been in my life getting ready to face another pregnancy. I am still walking in the mornings and will keep it up as long as my body lets me and hopefully it will help for a while and I am excited to know that if all else fails I have my chiropractor and the city pool to help ease the pain in my hips.
well now we just have to get pregnant.

A New Resolve

So David and I had come to the decision that we were done having kids and that we would try and adopt the rest that we were going to have because of the severity and length of my postpartum depression.Then the other day we were talking about it and have decided that we will have more. and that we can endure the challenges and overcome the ideas that we had previously been having. But one of the conditions we have decided on is that I have to lose some weight first because it is so hard on my hips. so here I am trying to lose weight so we can have another baby. and I think,"do I really want to go through all this again? Children are such miracles and are so worth it, right? Can I still be the kind of mother I need to be with another child and at least another 2 years of depression?" I mean where do all these fears and doubts come from. I need to have greater faith! A dear friend of mine said to me,"You never know maybe the next baby will fix all the hormone problems and you will not have depression anymore." I need to have that kind of faith. but at the same time it is probably easier to think those kind of things when it is not you having to face the challenge. On the other hand...I have a couple of other friends who have been trying for years to have children of their own and I feel totally horrid for taking that blessing for granted. what kind of person am I for not overlooking the challenges and embracing the fact that I can get pregnant and have my own babies?
So the whole point of breaching this whole frame of mind is that I have joined a walking group. And we started walking this morning. it is a great motivation for me to resolve to get my life in order. I have started to plan my summer mornings already. I am going to wake at about 530 and read scriptures,Then go work in my garden (we just tilled it Saturday)then get the kids ready and go walking at 830 it takes about 2-2 1/2 hours, then we come home and Tarren takes a nap.
It is a really good walk with 2 playgrounds for the kids to stop and play at. I am really excited about this. and it ends with a nice steep hill so we get our strength workout in also.

Skinny Ronnie Here I come!!

April first

So this was a strange year for me. Yesterday was not April First, or April fools day because it was a Hop year. that is a year when you can't get your visiting teaching done so you add and extra day to March. So it is quite a bummer having given March 32 days I lost the most wonderful april fools day...thus I was unable to play any pranks on anyone. such a sad year. No more Hop Years for me!!!

Conference weekend

So I am soo excited. I get to go to my mission reunion in Salt Lake for conference weekend. yippeee! Anyway I am so excited to see everyone again hopefully they all come because last reunion I went to 3 years ago not many of the people I knew were there so I think most of them will be coming this year so we will see.

Frustration

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. So I am getting so frustrated at this whole family reunion planning thing. I send emails...no response, I send letters....no response. I am ready to give up and tell everyone they have to take care of it. So the biggest part of the frustration is with the emails and letters and phone calls that have gone out we told them about the blog I set up for the reunion so people could have an easier means of contacting me or just seeing what is happening. Not a single person has looked at my blog for it. why do I even try.

empty minded

So I had one of those "why did I have kids" days yesterday. don't get me wrong I love my children to death and wouldn't trade them for the world, but sometimes you have a bad day and yesterday was one of those. So we finally got the kids to bed last night watched a little tv, played a little Indiana Jones on the Wii and went to bed. as we were getting ready for bed I had a thought come to my mind....It was great. I had finally thought of one of those things to write a blog about that people talk abnout for weeks after reading it. well I woke up this morning and cannot remember a thing about it for the life of me. I mean it was such a life changing topic that I actually went to sleep happy. and now my whole day is ruined because I can't remember it.

so tonight the beehives in our ward are having a babysitting night for children ages 3-6 and I took gabby over and I am having the hardest time with it. I have never had a problem leaving her with anyone before. but I am nearly in tears it is so different to me. I feel like I am going crazy